A GRIEVING mum has spoken out for the first time about the complete loneliness she felt after losing her baby to sudden infant death syndrome.
Sian Williams, 32, was devastated when baby Jacob Owen died in his sleep at just four months old.
And, outside her own vital circle of friends and family, she felt she was left “totally alone” at a time when she desperately needed experienced help and comfort.
Now she has vowed to fight to raise awareness saying: “I need to do this for Jacob.”
She said: “My family and friends were always there for me and they did what they could but people just didn’t know how to approach me or the situation.
“I really needed to have someone who knew how I was feeling and what I was going through.”
Jacob died in his cot at home in Mold Road Estate, Gwersyllt, on the morning of February 9 when Sian woke at about 9am to find he had stopped breathing and his tiny body had turned blue.
He was taken to Wrexham Maelor Hospital by ambulance before a post mortem examination was carried out at Liverpool’s Alder Hey Children’s Hospital. Sian was later very touched to receive a framed image of Jacob’s footprint from the Maelor and some commemorative photographs from Alder Hey.
But although she said NHS staff were wonderful to her the two counselling sessions she was offered were not enough.
Seeing her deep distress, Sian’s parents Gareth and Lorraine Williams put their efforts into researching a way to get Sian the help she desperately needed.
When they found the Foundation for the Study of Infant Deaths (FSID), Sian was put in touch – via the charity’s befriending project – with a woman in Devon who had been through the same heartache, a relationship which Sian believes has been vital in helping her cope.
She is now organising a sponsored walk and charity raffle on June 18 to raise awareness and funds for the charity in the hope that other families who have to go through the same pain will receive better support.
A group of volunteers will set out from the Golden Lion, Rossett, and make their way to Sian’s local pub, the Wheatsheaf, Gwersyllt, where visitors will be able to win prizes ranging from a family fun day for four, to gift hampers from Marks and Spencer.
Sian added: “It just meant so much to finally speak to someone who understood. But it amazed me that FSID had to go so far away to find someone to talk to me. It made me so determined to do whatever I can to raise awareness of the charity and let others know they’re not alone.”
Sian said she has a tattoo of Jacob’s footprint on her own foot, “so he’s always with me”.