A MOTHER has spoken for the first time after her son was banned from seeing her following years of aggression.
Leigh Jason May, 21, was barred from seeing his mother, Susan May, for five years after he admitted grabbing her and throwing her to the floor at the home they shared.
He was ordered not to approach Mrs May or enter the road where she lives in Saltney after appearing at Flintshire Magistrates Court on July 9.
Miss May, 58, said she feared her son would kill her. She told the Leader she still lives in fear despite the ruling, but hopes he can receive help to turn his life around.
“I’m not safe from him,” Mrs May said. “I thought he was going to kill me and I still believe he wants me dead – he has told me so.
“I was glad he wasn’t sent to prison because I think it would make him worse, but now I wonder whether it might be the only way.
“I wanted him to be ordered to attend rehabilitation because I think that is what he needs most, but I don’t think he will ever change.”
May also received a 20-month prison sentence, suspended for 12 months, and he was placed on supervision.
He was told by District Judge Andrew Shaw he had been spared an immediate custodial term due to significant changes he had since made to his lifestyle.
The court heard Miss May believes her son has mental health issues, with many of his problems stemming from his use of drugs. He has been aggressive towards her since he was 13-years-old.
May himself claimed a £7,000 drugs debt had resulted in him being threatened with a gun which was placed inside his mouth.
“I have bailed him out many times but I can’t do it anymore,” Miss May, of George Kenyon Mews said. “He never wanted for anything growing up but he blames me for everything that has happened.
“I have been spat at, kicked, had my hair yanked and hit. I was as scared to leave the house as I was to stay in because I never knew what I would come home to.
“Things would be smashed, there would be blood on the walls and the place would smell of cannabis.
“People would call me, telling me things were happening and the police would be here.
“When I was here I never knew who would be knocking on my door because of the money he owed people. They used to throw stones at the house. I was a prisoner.
“The ruling is a relief. There used to be a terrible atmosphere in the house but it is calmer now he isn't here. I used to get upset, but now it is more anger. It has been a nightmare for years.
“I am undergoing treatment for severe stress and depression. He has dictated to me but my confidence is slowly coming back.”
Miss May says she will now be able to devote more time to her partner who is currently in hospital undergoing cancer treatment.
But she said she would have still liked to have seen her son on her terms, adding: “I don’t think he will change without help and I don’t want history to repeat itself.”